Dont be afraid and dont feel guilty

In my last post I talked about that feeling of wanting to give up. Don't. You are such a strong person and you don't even realize it. When you're at the end of your tether and it feels like everything is falling apart don't be afraid to ask for help. As parents we don't have super powers (even though some times the kids think I'm magic which is pretty cute), we don't have every single answer to every single question that is brought to us. DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP! I have always been the kind of person (and I still am) that puts everyone before me. I have always been there to help anyone who needed a hand. It doesn't bother me because that's the kind of person I am. Over the last few weeks though I have thought to myself "when am I ever going to come first?". A wave of guilt came over me. I have a son with Autism plus 2 other children that completely depend on me for a lot of the time and it would be totally selfish of me to worry about me...... Well how wrong was I..... I lost it. I was a blubbering mess with a slightness of pity party starting (anyone who knows me knows I hate that game). But it has become better. I found a hobby which I absolutely love and that's my time for me. Reason being if we don't take time out for ourselves as parents and we fizzle out then the whole house falls apart. It's true I watched it happen in my own home. I did get to a stage where it was like if I just smile and pretend that nothing was wrong then I was going to be fine. Then my world came crashing down around me. I am human after all. At the end of the day something has to give and every parent deserves something resembling a break. Don't feel guilty about it. The world will not end if you take a few hours or even a weekend out for yourself. It may be just the thing you need.